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10 March 2018


They always say you never realise how much something means to you until you it's nearly taken away from you. This week I have been learning this the hard way and have learnt just how much this blog and my little space on the internet means to me.

I never took much thought into how much I truly care for this blog and what I have created through Midnight and Lace, but in all honesty it is everything to me. If I didn't have this blog, if I weren't allowed to have this space to share my creativity, my thoughts, my struggles then I don't know how I would cope in everyday life. I don't know if I could make it through. What most people don't know or understand is how this blog got started and how I was a completely different person when I started blogging. I started this blog just under two years ago and had actually been writing draft posts and not posting them for a while before that. I was at a very low point in my life - I had no confidence in myself, no self worth, I didn't know how to care or love for myself, I was reclusive and my anxiety was at an all time high. I struggled with being different. I tried to hide it from everyone for fear of being laughed at or ridiculed for who I was. I didn't know anyone like me and I was really struggling with a purpose for my life. I didn't feel like I had a purpose, like I belonged anywhere.

In the beginning, I was too shy to post photos of my face. I blogged anonymously because I still didn't feel good enough. I didn't call myself a blogger because I didn't feel worthy of the title. It's taken me a while but I started to show myself online, to take a huge step and share my style (which has now become such a huge part of my blog!) and even now I am overwhelmed by the support for my blog and my posts. I feel completely accepted on my blog and I love my space online. It is my creative outlet - it's how I express who I am. The clothes I choose to showcase, the way I do my makeup, the thought and detail I put into each post is like art to me. It's just I choose to be the subject of my art. It's helped me to accept who I am. It's helped me to love who I am.

Blogging has enabled me to gain a confidence I never thought I would have. It has showed me an entirely different community - one where being different is accepted. I have learnt to embrace who I am for being different and have been overwhelmed by the love, support and courage for my style. Through blogging I have learnt it is okay to love who I am, for who I am. I have been shown kindness I have never experienced. I've been invited to events where I've met people like me - people who make me feel welcomed. My blog has won an award and I have never felt so proud of anything I've done in my life!  I have made true friendships after feeling so alone and isolated for so long. I've finally found my place, I finally belong somewhere.

When you create content you never fully understand the impact it may have. The comments and messages I've received letting me know how my posts have helped you to embrace your own personal style and to embrace being different have made me realise that this blog is as much for you as it is for me. This is my place to have a platform to speak out about what I believe in and encourage others to live their lives the way they want. This is where I have a voice and I refuse to let that voice be silenced.

Till next time,
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  1. This is such a lovely post! Whenever I have down days, feel insecure about blogging and my place on the internet I try to remind myself that if my blog, my blog post or anything I say on social media helps just one person, it'll be worth it! I love seeing others smile :)

    AND you look amazing btw!

  2. I relate so hard to this post babe and I'm so sorry you going through this at work. If there's anything I can do to help let me know

  3. Robyn, first of all: You look absolutely lovely in those pictures!
    Your words are really relatable to me. It's exactly why I started blogging too. I needed a space where people wouldn't condemn me for my style of for being different. The bloggers community has given me this. It's actually a relief to see I'm not the only one. I follow you on Instagram, so I know what happened. I hope you're doing allright and will continue blogging <3 Wish you all the best and keep writing. Because your blog is one of my favorites!

    x Angela / Wickedlypleasant.com

  4. This blog is your home baby girl, they can’t make you leave. We all support and love you and your content always ✌🏻✨

  5. I was exactly the same, I blogged anonymously to start with because I wanted to keep it quiet, but I'm now super proud of my little space and how I've developed! I really hope it doesn't become a massive issue and that you can keep blogging!! xx

    Golly Miss Holly

  6. This is such a heart-warming post to read! It's great to hear how far blogging has brought you.

    P.S your outfit is fab!

    Kayla | www.daintydweeb.com


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