11 April 2018

EMBRACING WHAT I (DON'T) HAVE

One of the main things I feel I've gained since I started blogging is confidence. I never would have thought I'd be wearing an outfit like this on my blog, I never thought I'd be wearing an outfit like this full stop! To have the confidence to not only wear this, but feel good about my body whilst wearing it is such a huge milestone for me.


I have been very open with my struggle with self confidence and self esteem on my blog. I feel like it's important to use my blog as a platform to talk about not feeling good enough and struggling to accept the image you see in the mirror. I feel like I've been on such a long journey to accept my body and it's still a journey I'm on and probably will be for the rest of my life. It's almost as if I learn to love one part of my body and my self doubt screams "yeah but did you ever notice...". That's why it is such a milestone for me to wear a bodysuit like this one from ShopTobi*, when I was browsing their site, I came across this bodysuit and instantly fell in love with the velvet material and criss cross back detail, I'm a girl who loves to wear trousers and always feel like these kind of bodysuits would make me feel like I've made a bit more of an effort when I go out with my friends. I was really torn because half of me loved everything about it - the material, the detail, the straps! But the other half of me was screaming that this was a product made for girls like me...

One of my main insecurities are that I lack in the chest department, some times I'm even too small for the smallest size bras and if I'm honest it really gets to me. Growing up you are always told that when you go through puberty, your breasts grow and get bigger. For me, that didn't really happen and I just feel like I was always waiting, that one day I'd wake up and bam, I wouldn't be flat chested. In a way, I guess because of the size of my chest, I never felt like a real woman. In some twisted way, I learnt to associate being a woman with having certain physical features and seeing these "real women" in the media. It was damaging to how I saw myself and how I then felt about my body. I didn't see myself as a real women and would do my best to wear high neck t-shirts or to buy padded bras to almost make up for what I was lacking naturally. I've slowly been learning to embrace what I have (or don't have in this case!) and it's been a pretty empowering feeling. I feel free. I no longer feel restricted to certain types of clothing because I don't have the "right" body type. I'm glad I took the risk with this bodysuit, to prove to myself that I look good with what I have and I should be accepting that a lil more.










Bodysuit - ShopTobi* // Trousers - LoveTooTrue // Boots - Dr Martens // Belt - Nasty Gal // Dagger Pendant - CarterGore 

So, I don't have a large chest but that doesn't make me any less of a woman. I feel like it is so important that we tell girls that every size is just as valid and the size of your chest does not determine whether you are a "real woman" or not. We are all real women and we are all beautiful.

Till next time,
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 * This product was sent to me free of charge in exchange for being featured in this post. All words and opinions / comments remain my own.*
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4 comments

  1. Aw I loved this so much! I've always had the opposite problem, and when I was younger I'd buy big saggy jumpers and black tops, and stand hunched over to try and hide my chest because I felt embarrassed and way too noticeable. It's something I'm still working on but I'm getting there.

    You look absolutely gorgeous, and incredibly kickass, and like you're from a punky dystopian world. I'm not sure I'd trust my chest to behave in a bodysuit like that but I'm definitely going to have a look at their other options. Maybe find one with a bit more reinforcement ;)

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  2. This fit s perfect on you babe and I'm loving that pop of yellow
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  3. OMG I love this look ! You are so cute <3 This pants is awesome! I want one, the dark green but everytime is sold out :'(

    La Robe Noire
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  4. I feel this from the complete opposite end of the spectrum, it's weird how I relate to almost all of the same feelings. Too big for most bras, clothes, etc, I just feel ya babe. It really has hindered how I see myself and how I dress, never wearing things incase I look too slaggy or too frumpy.
    You're gorgeous and look absolutely incredible in this outfit xxx

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