29 April 2018

THE PROBLEM WITH BLOGGING


I will never not blog and will never not love blogging and Midnight and Lace, it has become such a huge part of not only my life but my identity as well! It's just, I feel like, more so now than ever before I am noticing some of the more negative aspects about blogging and if I'm 100% honest, it's kinda sucking the fun out of blogging for me...


Okay, I'm just going to jump straight to it and say my stats are pretty shocking at the minute. I'm really struggling with my stats and I know we don't blog for the stats but... we all definitely do. We are content creators and if nobody is viewing my content or is wanting to look at what I'm creating then maybe I'm not good enough. My stats often make me feel like I'm not good enough or that my content isn't good enough and it really does just suck all the fun out of blogging. I feel like I've become so wrapped up in constantly checking (and then feeling down) about the state of my statistics that I'm becoming to think that maybe I'm just not a good blogger or maybe people just don't like my content any more. I just wish I could sometimes go back to that mindset of not caring as much about my stats and feeling like my stats are a reflection of my content because if they are then maybe I need to rethink everything I've been posting...


The whole stressing about my stats links to my next issue with blogging. I have anxiety, it's something I've struggled with for most of my teenage / adult life and whilst blogging has helped my mental health in so many ways, I sometimes feel like blogging is a main source of my worrying and anxiety. I feel an insane amount of pressure when it comes to blogging and creating content for my blog. The best thing to ever happen to me was winning a blog award but at the same time I now constantly feel like I have to prove that my blog is award winning worthy - if that makes sense? I feel like every post has to be better than the one before and that every post has to be "better" but I am well aware that is a shit ton of pressure to place upon myself and completely unrealistic. I spend so long picking apart my posts, pointing out my own flaws, even re shooting outfits I'm not happy with. I just want everything I post here to be the best it can be because I want to create the best content for you because I really feel like you deserve it for constantly supporting and reading my blog. But, it is something I worry a lot about. I know I'm not alone in comparing myself to other bloggers and that for me is really sucking the fun out of my own blog posts, comparing my photos to others and feeling so inadequate that I just feel like I should give up because they are a thousand times better than me - why would someone want to read my blog when they can read someone who is a lot better than me?

For the first time since I started my blog I've started to feel somewhat censored when it comes to writing what I post both here and on my social media channels and there is nothing that sucks the fun out of what you love than feeling like you can't post or talk about certain things. I am feeling like my work have censored what I do here in a way because (mixed with my constant worrying) I feel slightly paranoid they're always checking up on me or monitoring my content, my Instagram is on private which is something I never wanted to do - I feel like I've been censored for being a blogger and wanting to share my individuality and opinion on the internet. It has caused a lot of tension and stress for me from feeling like what I do here is not supported at work. But, equally I feel like blogging as a whole has become a lot more censored. Some bigger bloggers have shared their opinion on certain aspects on blogging and certain aspects of the fashion blogging industry and now we feel like we can't talk about it. It's been happening more and more and it does suck the fun out of blogging. The whole point of blogging is to share your thoughts and opinions and now a lot of us feel like we can't post about blogging achievements or even comment on social issues for fear of being ripped to shreds online or looked down upon. It's insane! If we can't freely talk about what we like online or on our blogs, then what even is the point of it all?!
















I really don't want this to seem like I'm complaining about blogging because I'm not! I love blogging with all my heart, there are just certain parts of blogging that are getting me (and a lot of other bloggers) down. I will always be a blogger but I need to reevaluate the kind of blogger I want to be in order to make sure I don't let the negative aspects stop me from doing what I love most. I've often been told that people like how I do what I want and don't care about what others think - so maybe it's time I get back to that and inject that attitude back into my blogging.

Till next time,
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2 comments

  1. I totally agree with all of this! Sometimes when you publish content you're proud of and it bombs it's hard not to get really down about it.

    Kimberley // thecolourchronicles.com

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  2. I agree with all this, I get so disheartened by stats and comparing myself to others! I never feel good enough!

    Vicky // kabukirune.com

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