13 June 2018

AM I FAILING?


Do you ever get that feeling that no matter how hard you try or what you do, that you're just kind of failing at every single thing in your life? Because that is exactly how I feel at the minute and it is exhausting!


I've always been incredibly open on my blog about every aspect of my life - the good and the not so good. Well, this is one of those not so good feelings. I can't help but feel like I can't get anything right and am failing every aspect of my life - my blog, my job, my personal life, relationships and it just makes me feel like the biggest failure, like I will never be good enough. I can't exactly put my finger on why I feel like this all of a sudden or how to change the way I feel. This weekend, I spent the majority of it lying in bed, feeling so down about everything that I just alternated between sleeping and crying. The thing about feeling not good enough or like you're failing, is that you feel trapped by your own thoughts, you can't escape your mind.

Part of the problem is that I am a perfectionist and pretty hard on myself. I'm always striving for perfection and to always be and do better. I'm not saying this is a bad thing and sometimes aiming high and constantly pushing to be better can be great, but it can also be really draining and disappointing. I never feel good enough about how I look and am constantly comparing myself to others. Striving for a level of perfection that I am fully aware doesn't exist! It's a similar situation with my blog, I always want to do better, for each post to be better than before and that's great but at the same time it's hard work and I know I'm not the only person feeling this way. As bloggers, we are putting a huge amount of pressure on ourselves to constantly be creating high quality content, to be continually posting fresh and new posts, to be chosen for ad campaigns and collaboration work, to stand out and be unique when there seems to be so many other amazing bloggers out there and it's just got me thinking... when did it become this hard?! In all honesty, I feel like a failure when it comes to my blog because I compare my content to other people and it makes me doubt my own and my ability as a blogger. I worry too much about whether my content is equally creative and at the same time relatable. I just, don't feel good enough for the blogging world anymore and feel like I'm getting lost in it all.








So... where do I go next? I can't just give up. Moving forward, I need to reevaluate where I'm heading and what I want out of life. I need to reassess what to do in order to feel happy and to really tackle this toxic though process I've developed. I need to remove what is making me doubt myself, think about where I want to go next and really start to think more positively about myself. I need to stop focusing on always wanting to be the best and do the best and just be the best I can and do the best I can and that can change every day! Sometimes it's okay for my best to just be getting myself out of bed and eating three meals a day. It's going to take some time but I need to look after myself and change how I see myself because right now the only thing I'm failing as is being kind to myself.

Till next time,

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  1. I get like that sometimes too and I’ve always been a perfectionist. Sometimes I think the best way to go about it is to literally just continue on through it and eventually you kinda end up getting through the negative patch.

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  2. I have gone through this same mindset multiple times, I think that we all do at one time or another. I know it's easy to say, but try not to focus on comparing yourself to others. You're great in what you do, I LOVE your blog!
    Britt | http://alternativelyspeaking.ca

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  3. Totally understand this post- I compare myself to others too much (especially bloggers) and end up feeling like I should just give up! I find just wading through the tough patch and just keep continuing doing fab work and it will pay off at some point along the line. P.s. your outfit is SO fab!! x

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  4. Aww this post made me sad. I think everyone goes through this stage, some more frequently than others and I can totally relate to the feeling of constantly feeling like you need to be doing better with every literal step you take. Like you said, it's unrealistic and it's just being totally unnecessarily hard on yourself. Despite all this, it's so good that you've recognised that it's toxic and that it needs to change as you don't want to follow this path and let it burn you out. Well done for being so open about how you're feeling and as a side note I'm absolutely loving your outfit in the photos! I really hope you start to find a bit more peace with yourself and life soon, you're fabulous!
    Alice Xx

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  5. You're one of the most creative and unique bloggers I know, but posts like this are what make you so relatable, you don't try and pretend everything's picture perfect! I hope you shift this negative feeling soon, you deserve to feel as fab as you are!

    Jodie | jodiedcmitchell.co.uk

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  6. This is a really honest and well written post Robyn. I’ve also struggled with these feelings too, especially in jobs when I compare myself to others and feel like I’m making no progress. Keep going girl, you have a real talent for writing and your photography is gorgeous! Loving your style too! <3 xx

    Bexa | www.hellobexa.com

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  7. Great post! I can totally relate to this. It's hard not to get caught up in feelings like this, especially in today's day and age when we are able to compare ourselves to others online all the time. I hope you are able to get through it!

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  8. You've got this girl! I feel like that too a lot but your content is so great and I love reading your posts! As an aside, I love those shorts <3

    Kimberley // thecolourchronicles.com

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