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19 June 2019


Being a bit of a constant worrier, I realise I spend an unhealthy amount of time thinking about the past or worrying about the future. I feel like I’m either living in the past and overanalysing every decision I’ve ever made or overthinking the future, what I have to do and where I see my life going. So much so, that I think along the way I forgot to just… live in the present and enjoy what is happening right now. 

I’m not saying, I don’t ever want to think about the past or what I’ve done ever again. I love thinking back on memories I have and smiling when I remember a time I’ve remembered, but I have a tendency to overthink the more negative memories I have. I will relive a scenario in my head over and over again, analysing every word, every detail until I’ve convinced myself that what had happened was way worse or way more intense than it was! It’s a very similar scenario when I think about the future. I feel like I spend way more time than I should worrying about things that haven’t even happened yet! I am constantly thinking about the never-ending to do list I have in my brain, worrying about the what ifs and creating made up scenarios in my head, convincing myself that they’re true. It’s almost like I’ve forgotten to live!  I read about this constantly living in the past and worrying about the future recently and it really opened my eyes - not only to how damaging it was but how much of my life I have been wasting by doing so. Over the past few months, I’ve really tried to stay and live in the moment, to focus on the right now and really live for today and I’ve got to say - it’s been pretty great. 

Staying in the now has really helped me to gain a newfound love and perspective on my life and I am so grateful for everything I have going on. I’ve been enjoying spending time with people I really care about, getting out of the house more and creating more positive memories that I can’t help but smile about every time I think of them. I found it easier than I thought to stop living in the past as much and to just take a deep breath and move on from a situation instead of reliving it over and over again - analysing every fault I made. It’s made me a much happier person because I’m not wasting my time picking faults at myself, instead I’m enjoying my life something I feel like I haven’t done in a long time. I definitely still struggle not to worry and fret over the future because old habits die hard I guess. However, I’ve relaxed more when it comes to the pressure I put on myself to get everything done. I haven’t been sticking to a strict blogging schedule or beating myself up when I don’t post to twitter or instagram everyday because as harsh as it sounds, that just isn’t what’s important to me. This whole experience has taught me to value what is truly important in my life and prioritise what brings me the most happiness, right now in the moment. 

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The funny thing is, that by living in the moment and staying in the present I’m making memories I can look back on and smile. I’m appreciating my life more and how lucky I am to be able to do what I have over the past few months with the people I have in my life. I’ve gained a true love for life and I feel so happy about my life by just focusing on what is happening right now. 

Till next time, 
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