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26 July 2019

WHERE HAVE I BEEN AND WHAT AM I DOING NEXT?


Where do I start? I feel like in more recent months I have definitely put blogging to the back seat in terms of my priorities. There are a ton of reasons for this, the main one being I’ve just been super busy with life! So, I thought I would take the time to fill you in with a little life update and give you an insight into what is in store for Midnight and Lace. 


I’ve just finished my second year of teaching and have to say goodbye to my second class. This year had so many ups and downs and I had to deal with some of the most challenging and difficult situations I’ve ever had to deal with.  I absolutely love my job and feel so lucky that I get to work with the most amazing bunch of individuals and feel like I’m making a difference. However, it is also a very time consuming, challenging and draining job. These past few months have felt especially heavy and I’ve been coming in and passing out in a pile of exhaustion most nights! I’ve also had to deal with some individuals that have not made my job easy nor enjoyable. I’m not going to lie, it’s been hard working in an environment that at times has felt toxic but I’m choosing to let go of all the negativity from the year and look forward to a better and hopefully less stressful school year. As a result of how I’ve been made to feel by a very small amount of people, my mental health has taken a bit of a set back. I’ve been doubting myself and my ability to do everything recently. I haven’t felt like myself and have been picking flaws at the way I look - a main reason I haven’t been blogging. I wasn’t in a position where I felt comfortable in my own skin, let alone in front of a camera! I couldn’t think of anything worse than dressing up, posing in front of a camera and pretending nothing was wrong. It felt so fake. I needed to put myself, my wellbeing and my emotional happiness first and that’s what I’ve been doing. 


I’m actually in a really good place at the minute. I’ve been working on myself and I haven’t felt this happy in a long time. Despite some really difficult situations and some pretty low feelings, a lot of really positive stuff has happened! I took on extra responsibility at work at the beginning of the academic year and have been highly praised for all the change and success I’ve had since I took on a leadership role, which has been amazing. I’ve really worked on how I see myself and have become so confident in my body and own skin it’s unreal. I’m proud of my body, not ashamed when I look in the mirror anymore and have really embraced a natural makeup look, most days I only do my brows! For me, this is huge because I felt so ugly that I wouldn’t do anything or leave my house without having a full face of makeup so to embrace my skin and feel confident to do that is such an empowering feeling. I’m a pretty private person and feel like there are certain parts of my life I’m happy to share and other parts that I feel should be kept away from the internet and have never really been one to share my feelings online. However, I met a pretty special guy in January and yeah, it’s going really well. We don’t live in the same place, so I spend a fair more of my time travelling and spending time with him and it’s been really nice. He makes me happy. I don’t like talking or expressing my feelings so that’s all I’m gonna say >.< haha. 


So, what about the future of Midnight and Lace? The blog is here to stay and always will be. I’ve been thinking a lot about the kind of posts I want to publish, how I want to grow my blog and thrive as a “business” so to speak. There’s some big changes happening and I’m pretty damn excited. How often I post will vary because as much as I love this lil space, I’m learning it is only one part of my life and sometimes life has to come first. Life is filled with its ups and downs and I’ve experienced that in full force recently. Thank you so much for sticking it out with me these past few months, I haven't been the most active and my posts haven't been the best but I' m working on it! I hope you’re excited for the new and improved Midnight and Lace - launching very soon!

Till next time, 
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  1. Kudos to you, both for your accomplishments and for prioritising as well and as efficiently as you have. Best wishes for courage, serenity, strength, health, wisdom and success in the year ahead. Here's hoping it will be troll and mansplainer free, and that your classes are fulfilling.
    Being at ease in front of a camera can be a difficult mental state to achieve. I have not mastered it at all.
    You are young and beautiful and the photos of yourself that you included in this post are fabulous. I love your mascara, eyeliner, lipstick and the look of the outfit you were wearing.
    I'm glad your blog is here to stay! Wishing you all the best!! :D.

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